last of the summer memoirs
The memoir I'm Proud of You: My Friendship with Mr. Rogers by Tim Madigan, Mr. Rogers makes a point that sounds a lot like my previous post about Brene Brown's work: "anything mentionable is manageable." When life is moving at breakneck speed, during times of crisis or transition, it can seem like there will never be time enough to manage it all nor even to mention it all. Madigan shares a traditional Arabian proverb that Fred Rogers shared with him as their friendship developed in correspondence:
This next book is both silly and searingly honest. I'm the One That I Want by Margaret Cho is her memoir of coming to be a successful comic, forged in the fires of painful stand-up flops and a failed t.v. show. It's comedy, yes, but Cho's life has had its bleak moments. She finds ways to laugh, and so the reader does as well, but it's an intensely emotional ride. And I love this kind of raw honesty. She tells the story of failing out of high school twice. She talks about the joys of being a "fag hag" and the gay men she has loved, in addition to harrowing tales of dungeons, drag queens, and a whole lotta drugs. Cho also gets deep into struggles with Korean journalists whom she in equal parts expects to support her and despises when they don't, all through a lens of hard-won understanding that neither she nor they could be expected to "represent" an entire people to each other. Favorite quotes include...
When she finally ditches the boyfriend who was just no good to her:
"I had, for once, stood up for myself and stuck to what I knew was best for me, even though I wanted to please Bob and not be the bad guy. I did not stop laughing for a long time." (p. 62)
On trying to find love and acceptance outside of yourself first:
"I thought if I could get the job, get noticed, maybe even become a star, then I would stop hating myself, and adore me just like the rest of the world. Self-love doesn't work like that. Life doesn't work like that. [...] I think we all have our own messages, the tapes that play over and over in our minds, that weaken us, that desecrate the holines sof our lives, that come disguised as a way to motivate ourselves, when really they are all about self-sabotage. [...] Let's not hate ourselves. We are all we have. We cannot change anything until we accept that." (p. 90-91)
On people being stupid:
"People are stupid and will say what they say. It's not just [physical] weight [issues] either. It's everything. The challenge is learning not to give them the power to dictate how I will feel about myself. Learning how to love myself from within, to make my opinion count the most, knowing that no one and nothing is going to save me except myself--these are the lessons I have been forced to learn. That is what my life now is all about." (p. 207)
Those are my favorites, but believe me when I tell you that much of the joy is in the more raw moments that the ones I've quoted here. Strong women with fierce voices occupying the celebrity stage are still a rarity in our odd entertainment culture. I hope Cho takes the stage over and over again.
The last couple of years I haven't posted as much as I before that stressful time. But these days the reading energy and creativity are back! Stay tuned for posts about recent articles related to gender issues in children's literature, the history of children as readers, great new resources for youth services librarians, and a smattering of general-interest LIS-related pieces. It's going to be a great year. Best wishes to all those who go back to school, as students or otherwise, in the next few weeks!